I finally watched the movie Burlesque today. It reminded me of how much I miss performing. I don’t think about it much anymore but every once in a while I want to get dressed really pretty and dance in a mirror. It seems silly sometimes but it’s just so glamorous. Maybe I’ll perform again someday. :)
So school ended up being not so bad after all. Got registered today and I’m looking forward to doing something new. :D I see a bright new future ahead.
Merry Christmas baby! After a long day of decorating and gift wrapping I’m feeling more in the spirit. :*
Stupid bureaucratic BS
I have always had so many problems with stupid schools. After my car accident I wanted to go back to school but they couldn’t let me until I was rehabilitated. So I went back 2 years later when I could handle it and they said I was too far behind so I couldn’t go back to my high school. Had to go to adult school and catch up first. Went to the dumb adult school. They told me I was better off getting my GED and moving on. So I did all the course work for that. Turns out it was only 4 classes away from my high school diploma. Go figure. So I asked the teacher if I could just finish and he says, “well you were signed up for GED study so your grades were undocumented. So if you want to continue, you’ll have to start over.” So I says to myself, “Never mind!” So I go to take the GED test but I’m not in the system. They want me to retake the pretest. So I do. Then I sign up for the real test again and pay for it… And then they lose my paperwork and my money! So I said, “F**k this!”
And now for the first time in years I’m trying to get involved in school again. So I go to sign up yesterday and they say I need my transcripts. So I call my old high school, they don’t have me on record. So I go to the district and I have to pay $5 to have them printed. Take 7 days for no good reason and they go on vacation on Thursday. So I won’t get them until January. So I have to wait to sign up for classes and pray the classes don’t get full while those air heads get fat this holiday season.. I hate school so much right now.
Today!
Today is a great day to change my life for the better. It’s been a really really long time since I have had the desire to return to school. But today I’m registering for classes. I’m excited about what the next year holds. School, quitting my stupid job, finding a place to live, and planning the finer details of my wedding. It’s all so exhilarating. Not to mention getting to dye my hair any crazy color I want again! I always felt there was something amazingly expressive about having the ability to have purple or cherry or blue hair.
My game plan is pretty sound and hopefully it will help me do what needs to be done to get my life rolling in the direction I need. :)
Wish me luck!
I love doing art. I did this one earlier this year.
The last post secret was technically for last week so this one is this weeks.
The Love of my Life
In June of 2010, while working at the hell pit (A.K.A. Universal Studios), I met my beloved. He amazes me. After a year and a half together he still wakes up every morning and smiles when he sees me. He tells me every single day how beautiful I am and how much he looks forward to our life together. I never question him when he says he loves me or doubt when he tells me he wants to be with me forever. I just know it’s true, I can feel it all the way to my soul.
So even when he is annoying or the two of us are having a tiff, I still know in my heart that it will pass and by the time we fall asleep we will be back in each others arms.
*sigh* I love him so much.
I love making and wearing costumes.
tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?
I have always been drawn to Europe but more specifically I’d love to go to Greece. But that is technically this world… The place I want to visit in my world is a little unknown island where stupidity is forbidden and people get along with nature. And the animals talk. Yup! I wanna go there. :D
My post secret of the week. I know it’s not a secret if I’m putting it on here… But this is a trip into my head and this is a part of that.
Post Secret
I’m a total addict. I have written many myself and I check it every week. It makes me feel less alone.
I miss my cherry hair… Good news is in February I’m getting it back!
Have I mentioned I have a BIG mouth?
I have a bad way of saying too much. Especially when I’m trying not to upset someone or push them away… But when I’m talking to you about something important, for God’s sake, tell me your listening. Answer my damn questions. The only thing your silence does is make me hostile! That’s why I bite so hard. Why I get mean sometimes. Okay so your busy. At least text me later and say hi. Or take a moment to text me for a change instead of me constantly trying for your attention just to feel rejected by your lack of consideration.
Dependency comes in so many forms. And having a friend you speak to 24/7 is a dependency you don’t see happening until your life line is cut and your confused. I’m not mad, I’m scared. I’m lost and I feel lonely, even in a crowded room. It’s an enormous loss.
And it’s because I let you in. I allowed myself to open up to you. I feel vulnerable and unprotected. Maybe it’s just because you never really let me that close to you, but I’m sorry if I seem to harsh or demanding. It’s not your fault or anything. It’s just that fear is an amazingly difficult thing to cope with.
I just don’t want our friendship to end. I love you too damn much. :(
This song is totally stuck in my head and it makes me think of the few close friends I have. The ones I would trust with my life. I don’t know where I would be without them. :)
